So I just noticed that, at the bottom of my posts, it says something along the lines of "Posted by the randomly random Mia"...
Okay, that's gotta have been something I did in middle school. "Randomly random" come on Mia can't you think of something more descriptive that is the ABSOLUTE FURTHEST FROM RANDOM.
But I can't figure out how to change that.
I think that one time, I just went through all the blog features and got into all the details and changed around little things like that, and now I can't find out how to change it, and it makes me cringe every time I see it.
(Send help pls send help.)
Monday, November 30, 2015
Astronomy (Reprise)...
So I just went and played around with the grading system and found that that one time I missed that one homework assignment is going to cost me 2% of the entire final grade. How is that even right...? I think homework is worth 20% of the final grade... So if, because of that assignment, I lost 10 points on homework... I guess that would translate to and entire two points off my final grade? How is that right, though........??
I'm still not entirely acquainted with how grading and GPA works in college, because I'm just in my first semester, but if things go by letter grades... this BETTER not make me miss a letter grade. I BETTER not miss an A by two points. I BETTER NOT. THAT IS ALL.
(Okay, just I just checked the syllabus and it's divided into A and A- and B+, etc. and if I get a 93, that's an A (90-92.9 is A-) AND WAIT I WANT THAT A. Astronomy is kind of difficult, so I'm not there yet... but... I've got a couple of projects ready to turn in and I hope I did well on them? Also I did this four page extra credit paper that will add 10 points to my next test so I hope I get that A???
I'm still not entirely acquainted with how grading and GPA works in college, because I'm just in my first semester, but if things go by letter grades... this BETTER not make me miss a letter grade. I BETTER not miss an A by two points. I BETTER NOT. THAT IS ALL.
(Okay, just I just checked the syllabus and it's divided into A and A- and B+, etc. and if I get a 93, that's an A (90-92.9 is A-) AND WAIT I WANT THAT A. Astronomy is kind of difficult, so I'm not there yet... but... I've got a couple of projects ready to turn in and I hope I did well on them? Also I did this four page extra credit paper that will add 10 points to my next test so I hope I get that A???
Astronomy...
Way early in the semester, I missed this one astronomy homework assignment... so I have a zero for it and it really is disappointing to look at. But if I had completed that, my homework average grade would be around a 97%... and, with that, it's 87%. I wish I could go back in time and do it... I have no idea how I missed it, I just didn't remember to do it, cause it's online. It was the third homework assignment (out of about ten or eleven) and it's incredibly frustrating.... so, yeah. There's that. I can't believe I missed it and it's costing me THAT much.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Bucket List (But Not Mine)
I came back to my room this morning to see a small poster on my roommate's bed. She's got this group of friends (they call each other "fam") and they had created a "Fam Bucket List" of things they want to do in the next four years. It's got all sorts of cute things like skydiving, sneaking into a concert, watch the New Year's ball drop in Times Square, and, at the bottom, really big, it says "GRADUATE."
That's cute. It really is.
And, for the first time, I kind of felt a twang of regret that I don't have friends here close enough to make a bucket list with.
Then again. I'm not looking for friends, honestly. I haven't been actively seeking friends, because I've realized that the best friends are the ones who come naturally. They come to you and you stay together, because you were meant to be together.
I don't try to force friendships. And that's why I'm okay with having like seven friends here at college... I know that freshman year, I'm probably not gonna find life-long friends (though it could happen... though it's not happening, so I'm not worrying about it), and instead of making advances toward finding a friend group, it'll pay off more in the long run if I make advances towards doing things that will actually help my career.
I guess I'm future-oriented? I don't even know if I'm doing this right.
But basically, what I'm wanting to say is that I have like no friends here, and I'm okay with that.
Hair Ties
When I was younger, my mom would tie my hair with those little ties that had balls at the ends, you know, where you would wrap the elastic around the ponytail and fasten them by stretching one ball over the other. I don't know what those were called, but the internet today seems to call them "ball hair ties" so that's what they'll be called.
I had all kinds of them, and the vast majority of them were from Asia. They had little Asian cartoon characters on them, or they would sometimes be flowers, or sometimes just a clump of fancy looking puffballs and shiny beads. Either way, they were always made of bright colors, and they were hard to miss.
Those are what I tied my hair with. And I never thought anything of it until sixth grade, when one morning at Sunday school, we went around the room saying what we appreciate about each other. When it got to me, a girl gushed, "I love how you always have cute little things in your hair!" and everyone agreed how I always had my hair tied with "cute little hair ties."
"Cute little hair ties."
That's not what I thought they were. They were just the norm for me.
And that's when I realized that they were different. These little Asian hair ties that my mom got for me? They weren't the stretchy brown circular hair bands that held up everyone else's ponytails.
I thought about it a lot that day. That's the last time I ever wore them. I got home, pulled them out of my hair, and replaced them with the regular circle kind.
And I haven't really thought about that until now.
Because it didn't seem like a big deal to me back then. It was just an accepting, submissive "this is different about me, I don't want this difference, and it's easy to change, so I'll change it."
I've always thought of myself as fairly indifferent to judgments and expectations. I remember at my birthday sleepovers in middle school, when all of my friends brought their hair straighteners and curlers, I always refused to let them touch my hair with an iron. I liked my hair. I didn't want to change it. I overheard my dad consult my mom with possible concern, "She's not doing her hair like all the rest of her friends." My mom shrugged and said, "She has confidence." And that was the end of that.
So I wonder what is was back then that made me switch those ball hair ties for the normal bands. What was it that made me quietly reject what had been part of my everyday life? And, in a way, they were reflective of my heritage. Ball hair ties were sold in US stores, but the ones my mom got me were made in Asia, and you could tell. Thinking back on it, I'm feeling some nostalgia and a little bit of regret. How did I let the comments - they were even compliments - of my classmates so easily persuade me to change what had more or less been a part of me?
It didn't mean much back then.
So what am I throwing away now? I am making many changes in my life. I do all of these in hopes of bettering myself and my future, but which ones of these changes may I someday regret?
I had all kinds of them, and the vast majority of them were from Asia. They had little Asian cartoon characters on them, or they would sometimes be flowers, or sometimes just a clump of fancy looking puffballs and shiny beads. Either way, they were always made of bright colors, and they were hard to miss.
Those are what I tied my hair with. And I never thought anything of it until sixth grade, when one morning at Sunday school, we went around the room saying what we appreciate about each other. When it got to me, a girl gushed, "I love how you always have cute little things in your hair!" and everyone agreed how I always had my hair tied with "cute little hair ties."
"Cute little hair ties."
That's not what I thought they were. They were just the norm for me.
And that's when I realized that they were different. These little Asian hair ties that my mom got for me? They weren't the stretchy brown circular hair bands that held up everyone else's ponytails.
I thought about it a lot that day. That's the last time I ever wore them. I got home, pulled them out of my hair, and replaced them with the regular circle kind.
And I haven't really thought about that until now.
Because it didn't seem like a big deal to me back then. It was just an accepting, submissive "this is different about me, I don't want this difference, and it's easy to change, so I'll change it."
I've always thought of myself as fairly indifferent to judgments and expectations. I remember at my birthday sleepovers in middle school, when all of my friends brought their hair straighteners and curlers, I always refused to let them touch my hair with an iron. I liked my hair. I didn't want to change it. I overheard my dad consult my mom with possible concern, "She's not doing her hair like all the rest of her friends." My mom shrugged and said, "She has confidence." And that was the end of that.
So I wonder what is was back then that made me switch those ball hair ties for the normal bands. What was it that made me quietly reject what had been part of my everyday life? And, in a way, they were reflective of my heritage. Ball hair ties were sold in US stores, but the ones my mom got me were made in Asia, and you could tell. Thinking back on it, I'm feeling some nostalgia and a little bit of regret. How did I let the comments - they were even compliments - of my classmates so easily persuade me to change what had more or less been a part of me?
It didn't mean much back then.
So what am I throwing away now? I am making many changes in my life. I do all of these in hopes of bettering myself and my future, but which ones of these changes may I someday regret?
Monday, November 23, 2015
Current Favorites
I feel like I should give a little run-down of my current favorite things... just kind of as an introduction, but also as a landmark, because these will definitely change in the future.
Favorite musicals: Newsies (kinda have to have that one on my list, cause it's what inspired me to start musical theatre), Hamilton (of course..... only of COURSE though), Next to Normal, Rent, Kinky Boots (ever since they came to my city a couple of weeks back and I spent so much time sitting across the lot, staring at the trailer...), Finding Neverland (got to see that one on Broadway after convincing my parents that it was the show to see)... I would probably like Fun Home and Les Miserables if I saw them...
Favorite Broadway actors: Lin-Manuel Miranda (of course... only of COURSE though), Andy Mientus, Andrew Keenan-Bolger, Santino Fontana, Tommy Bracco, Adam Kaplan (bless that man), Corey Cott, Jeremy Jordan... of course, Christopher Gattelli, though he's a choreographer (bless that man even MORE)....
Those are the only things I like. Musicals and Broadway actors.
I'm gonna go over the list of who I currently follow on Twitter. It's a very select number cause I only follow those I'm interested in, so I don't have to wade through lots of irrelevant tweets. Or at least, irrelevant tweets from irrelevant people. (Irrelevant tweets from relevant people are okay.) And I know that just sounded really judgmental and unfair, but chill. It's Twitter. It's just that I'd rather my timeline be nice and condensed.
Anyway, here goes, starting from the person I've been following for the longest:
Taylor Groothuis (she's a kid actor, we used to be internet friends, don't really talk anymore, but I don't have it in me to unfollow her for as long as she follows me), Rowan Blanchard (followed her BEFORE SHE GOT COOL AND ON 'GIRL MEETS WORLD' and turned into an intelligent, poised activist), Nicole (best friend, have to follow), Ariana (again, friend, have to follow, she kinda made me do it hahaha), Corey Cott (played the lead role in Newsies when I saw it on Broadway, also Corey is such an inspiration, he's a strong Christian on the Broadway scene and isn't afraid to show and share it at all... if I make it to Broadway someday, I want to be like Corey), David Guzman (while I was watching Newsies, I liked him the best out of the ensemble), Jeremy Jordan (he's just everything), the theatre that I did 'The King and I' at (because that's necessary), this guy I did K&I with (also necessary, for as long as he follows me too), Christopher Gattelli (because he's my Broadway inspiration and yaaaaaas he's everything, even more everything than Jeremy), Greg Zane (worked with him on K&I), Emilio (he's actually on Broadway K&I now, but I worked with him in the one I did, and he was my favorite castmate, wow, he influenced me so much), Jon (he's also in Broadway's K&I, we're internet friends, I got to hang out with him for a second in his dressing room when I went to visit them, but he's my age and he's like currently the only person on Broadway who's our age), Alejandro (ugh wow beautiful), Adam Kaplan (saw him as Davey in Newsies when he understudied the role, also met him when he came with Kinky Boots, which I saw like three times.. but I gave him cookies and he flipped out... and we also have matching t-shirts), Ryan Steele (Newsies, dancer, beautiful as well), Tommy Bracco (Tommy Bracco for Prom Queen... that is all), Amaya (from Broadway's K&I), this filmmaking dude in my city who I met who's important who I should follow (because keeping connections), Michael Fatica (Newsies), Aaron Albano (Newsies, also Broadway K&I, I met him there when I visited), Tyce Green (Broadway but not Broadway guy? We're internet acquaintances, also my friend grew up with him), NPH (of course), Lin-Manuel Miranda (of course... only of COURSE though), Santino Fontana (saw him first in 'Submissions Only' - which, by the way, I am on my third time of watching, it's so great), Stephan Bienske (also saw in Subs Only but he's engaged to Chris Gattelli, so that's important and cool), Andrew Keenan-Bolger (made Subs Only also makes like everything all hipster and cool about Broadway, he's the total trendsetter), Colin Hanlon (Subs Only, but he's great), Telsey + Company (I want to work for them, they're the biggest casting company on the Broadway scene), Andy Mientus (ugh he's perfect, that's all), Sean Grandillo (also basically perfect), Chris McCarrell (also basically perfect), J Harrison Ghee (was Lola when I saw Kinky Boots tour, got to talk to him a couple of times and ugh he's so sweet and humble), Juan (from Kinky Boots, he knows Emilio too because they were both on the West Side Story national tour), Michael (Kinky Boots dance captain, he looked so cool) AND THAT'S IT. THAT WAS SO UNNECESSARY. AND TIRING. But I had to stick it through.
Sorry about that.
Good night.
Favorite musicals: Newsies (kinda have to have that one on my list, cause it's what inspired me to start musical theatre), Hamilton (of course..... only of COURSE though), Next to Normal, Rent, Kinky Boots (ever since they came to my city a couple of weeks back and I spent so much time sitting across the lot, staring at the trailer...), Finding Neverland (got to see that one on Broadway after convincing my parents that it was the show to see)... I would probably like Fun Home and Les Miserables if I saw them...
Favorite Broadway actors: Lin-Manuel Miranda (of course... only of COURSE though), Andy Mientus, Andrew Keenan-Bolger, Santino Fontana, Tommy Bracco, Adam Kaplan (bless that man), Corey Cott, Jeremy Jordan... of course, Christopher Gattelli, though he's a choreographer (bless that man even MORE)....
Those are the only things I like. Musicals and Broadway actors.
I'm gonna go over the list of who I currently follow on Twitter. It's a very select number cause I only follow those I'm interested in, so I don't have to wade through lots of irrelevant tweets. Or at least, irrelevant tweets from irrelevant people. (Irrelevant tweets from relevant people are okay.) And I know that just sounded really judgmental and unfair, but chill. It's Twitter. It's just that I'd rather my timeline be nice and condensed.
Anyway, here goes, starting from the person I've been following for the longest:
Taylor Groothuis (she's a kid actor, we used to be internet friends, don't really talk anymore, but I don't have it in me to unfollow her for as long as she follows me), Rowan Blanchard (followed her BEFORE SHE GOT COOL AND ON 'GIRL MEETS WORLD' and turned into an intelligent, poised activist), Nicole (best friend, have to follow), Ariana (again, friend, have to follow, she kinda made me do it hahaha), Corey Cott (played the lead role in Newsies when I saw it on Broadway, also Corey is such an inspiration, he's a strong Christian on the Broadway scene and isn't afraid to show and share it at all... if I make it to Broadway someday, I want to be like Corey), David Guzman (while I was watching Newsies, I liked him the best out of the ensemble), Jeremy Jordan (he's just everything), the theatre that I did 'The King and I' at (because that's necessary), this guy I did K&I with (also necessary, for as long as he follows me too), Christopher Gattelli (because he's my Broadway inspiration and yaaaaaas he's everything, even more everything than Jeremy), Greg Zane (worked with him on K&I), Emilio (he's actually on Broadway K&I now, but I worked with him in the one I did, and he was my favorite castmate, wow, he influenced me so much), Jon (he's also in Broadway's K&I, we're internet friends, I got to hang out with him for a second in his dressing room when I went to visit them, but he's my age and he's like currently the only person on Broadway who's our age), Alejandro (ugh wow beautiful), Adam Kaplan (saw him as Davey in Newsies when he understudied the role, also met him when he came with Kinky Boots, which I saw like three times.. but I gave him cookies and he flipped out... and we also have matching t-shirts), Ryan Steele (Newsies, dancer, beautiful as well), Tommy Bracco (Tommy Bracco for Prom Queen... that is all), Amaya (from Broadway's K&I), this filmmaking dude in my city who I met who's important who I should follow (because keeping connections), Michael Fatica (Newsies), Aaron Albano (Newsies, also Broadway K&I, I met him there when I visited), Tyce Green (Broadway but not Broadway guy? We're internet acquaintances, also my friend grew up with him), NPH (of course), Lin-Manuel Miranda (of course... only of COURSE though), Santino Fontana (saw him first in 'Submissions Only' - which, by the way, I am on my third time of watching, it's so great), Stephan Bienske (also saw in Subs Only but he's engaged to Chris Gattelli, so that's important and cool), Andrew Keenan-Bolger (made Subs Only also makes like everything all hipster and cool about Broadway, he's the total trendsetter), Colin Hanlon (Subs Only, but he's great), Telsey + Company (I want to work for them, they're the biggest casting company on the Broadway scene), Andy Mientus (ugh he's perfect, that's all), Sean Grandillo (also basically perfect), Chris McCarrell (also basically perfect), J Harrison Ghee (was Lola when I saw Kinky Boots tour, got to talk to him a couple of times and ugh he's so sweet and humble), Juan (from Kinky Boots, he knows Emilio too because they were both on the West Side Story national tour), Michael (Kinky Boots dance captain, he looked so cool) AND THAT'S IT. THAT WAS SO UNNECESSARY. AND TIRING. But I had to stick it through.
Sorry about that.
Good night.
Changes....
All right, y'all... I changed the layout of the blog... and like... everything about it. I really liked how it looked before, and I shoulda taken a screenshot of it before I changed it, but I made the changes before I realized I was doing it.
I changed the name, too... 'Annasophie Awesomeness' is definitely not descriptive of, like anything. Partway through these changes, I wondered if I should have just made a new blog and left this one as is... but nah. The words are still there, and that's what took years to build up. And this is me. So that's how it'll stay.
Also, somewhere along the way, Blogger must have made some deals with Google cause now the Google profile seems to be the Blogger profile and it doesn't say my name is 'Annasophie' anymore so... I guess I'm really gonna just be Mia on my blog now.
But, yeah. These changes, they happened.
I changed the name, too... 'Annasophie Awesomeness' is definitely not descriptive of, like anything. Partway through these changes, I wondered if I should have just made a new blog and left this one as is... but nah. The words are still there, and that's what took years to build up. And this is me. So that's how it'll stay.
Also, somewhere along the way, Blogger must have made some deals with Google cause now the Google profile seems to be the Blogger profile and it doesn't say my name is 'Annasophie' anymore so... I guess I'm really gonna just be Mia on my blog now.
But, yeah. These changes, they happened.
Wrapping Up the Explanation
So here comes where I explain why I'm doing this. Or, I mean, now I'm able to give a more comprehensive explanation, because I've gone over a few things.
Next semester will be so busy. I'm taking, like, fifteen hours at school (only twelve right now) and one of them is REALLY crucial and I need a B in that class for it to count, and it kind of has to count, because it's a prerequisite for like everything and I'm taking my math class. It's Statistics, and I took AP Stat in high school, so I should be good? But still it'll require so much effort, and I need to be able to get myself to do that.
Again, I spend way too much time talking to people, and I actually do type this much when I'm talking to them, so I know I'm literally typing essays here, but honestly when I'm typing to someone, it's essays upon essays upon essays. Because there are responses. And I can't predict how long a conversation will go for. So I'm going to cut down on time with this.
And I need to get time cut down because I have to choose what I need to focus on. Of course, school has to be a first priority... I guess it is, in my mind, but in my heart, school is like "nope" and I just want to do all the arts instead. See, this semester, I've spent lots of time reading plays, working on writing plays, practicing dance in my dorm room... but I can't do all that random extra stuff. I mean I guess I'll probably continue practicing dance stuff and stretching in my dorm, but just less because I'll be taking lessons and ACTUALLY dancing.
So, of course, school. Gotta do that.
Then dance. Will have to do that.
And I think that's it, that's all I'll be able to get myself to do and do WELL.
I might even schedule, like, and hour by hour agenda for myself, and I might not follow it, but at least, if I don't follow it, I'll feel bad about not following it, which will hopefully guilt trip me INTO following it.
I'll give that a shot. But I'm not going to have time for social (I should probably do another post about that) but that's not a problem and it's not really a priority. I'll probably drop out of a couple of organizations I'm in, just for next semester, at least. Which reminds me... that if I do dance classes, I won't be able to do any student plays... which I might get to later in another post... but... oh. That's okay, cause win LOTS, lose some, hopefully. There's one organization I was totally planning on going to, but I've only been to one meeting, so, oops. Then there's one that I've been going to, but it hasn't been helpful, and I have a class next semester that starts right when this organization ends. One of the only reasons why I'm in this org is because it increases my chances of getting a job at the company it's linked with (not like big job, just little stuff but it's still something I'd like to do).
So I'll just not do those organizations... I'll do school and dance and mannn I gotta figure out when I'm going to go to Bible studies and stuff... cause I need a Christian community, just... I have a class during the time they meet as a college group. But there's a Bible study on Sunday evenings with the college girls, and I guess I'll go to that. And church in the morning, of course. I need to be able to figure this out. Cause this should be the number one priority, but it just.. isn't, really, ya know? And it needs to be.
Anyways. Yeah, I think that's it. Basically, I just gotta cut down on the things that aren't my top three. And I'm making lifestyle adaptations accordingly (like this). So let's see how this goes.
Next semester will be so busy. I'm taking, like, fifteen hours at school (only twelve right now) and one of them is REALLY crucial and I need a B in that class for it to count, and it kind of has to count, because it's a prerequisite for like everything and I'm taking my math class. It's Statistics, and I took AP Stat in high school, so I should be good? But still it'll require so much effort, and I need to be able to get myself to do that.
Again, I spend way too much time talking to people, and I actually do type this much when I'm talking to them, so I know I'm literally typing essays here, but honestly when I'm typing to someone, it's essays upon essays upon essays. Because there are responses. And I can't predict how long a conversation will go for. So I'm going to cut down on time with this.
And I need to get time cut down because I have to choose what I need to focus on. Of course, school has to be a first priority... I guess it is, in my mind, but in my heart, school is like "nope" and I just want to do all the arts instead. See, this semester, I've spent lots of time reading plays, working on writing plays, practicing dance in my dorm room... but I can't do all that random extra stuff. I mean I guess I'll probably continue practicing dance stuff and stretching in my dorm, but just less because I'll be taking lessons and ACTUALLY dancing.
So, of course, school. Gotta do that.
Then dance. Will have to do that.
And I think that's it, that's all I'll be able to get myself to do and do WELL.
I might even schedule, like, and hour by hour agenda for myself, and I might not follow it, but at least, if I don't follow it, I'll feel bad about not following it, which will hopefully guilt trip me INTO following it.
I'll give that a shot. But I'm not going to have time for social (I should probably do another post about that) but that's not a problem and it's not really a priority. I'll probably drop out of a couple of organizations I'm in, just for next semester, at least. Which reminds me... that if I do dance classes, I won't be able to do any student plays... which I might get to later in another post... but... oh. That's okay, cause win LOTS, lose some, hopefully. There's one organization I was totally planning on going to, but I've only been to one meeting, so, oops. Then there's one that I've been going to, but it hasn't been helpful, and I have a class next semester that starts right when this organization ends. One of the only reasons why I'm in this org is because it increases my chances of getting a job at the company it's linked with (not like big job, just little stuff but it's still something I'd like to do).
So I'll just not do those organizations... I'll do school and dance and mannn I gotta figure out when I'm going to go to Bible studies and stuff... cause I need a Christian community, just... I have a class during the time they meet as a college group. But there's a Bible study on Sunday evenings with the college girls, and I guess I'll go to that. And church in the morning, of course. I need to be able to figure this out. Cause this should be the number one priority, but it just.. isn't, really, ya know? And it needs to be.
Anyways. Yeah, I think that's it. Basically, I just gotta cut down on the things that aren't my top three. And I'm making lifestyle adaptations accordingly (like this). So let's see how this goes.
(Actually) Me, 2015
All right, we're back here again. Present-day now, mkay, so...
I'm a college student now, I'm majoring in Advertising which is really cool! Advertising is really cool! And I like it! It's a good creative outlet and it's something I enjoy! But! If I could do anything and know I couldn't fail, I would head into a career of theatre performance.
Because theatre is my passion.
I had mentioned it used to be film, I used to be die-hard passionate for film, but once all the theatre stuff happened in my life, I just... I can't stop thinking about theatre. It's what I want to do. There's just something about being trusted with time and a story that's so appealing to me. It's an honor, really, to be a performer, because when people watch movies? They do it cause they're bored. And it costs, like, a few dollars. But for live theatre, they have to physically go to the theatre, buy a ticket that is usually about $50, and commit an entire two or three hours to watching what you're doing on stage. It's so much more of a commitment, but that's how you know they WANT to be there. They've made an effort and have come this far, so you can't give them less than everything you've got. Because you can inspire them, really. People come to the theatre to be inspired.
I can't not do this.
And I know I didn't even do theatre in high school, but, in a way, I feel like people who DID theatre in high school take it for granted. (And I should hold that thought because it's for another post.)
So, yeah, I'm majoring in Advertising, but I'm in the process of trying to get into the Theatre Department at my university so that I can double major with Advertising and Theatre. I did an audition and everything, and I think that went well, but there's a lot that will go into whether or not I get in. A lot of it depends on the incoming freshmen, cause the department has to accept students, the students have to choose whether or not they are actually going to come here, and then they have to choose what, like, "focus" they want to study (performance, directing, playwriting), and THEN the transfers and double majors like me get to see if there's still space for us. So there's a lot. And there's only so much I can do, but I'm gonna do it, because this is something I will actually work hard for. Cause I'm only in college once. And if I can get two degrees out of these four years, I'm going to do it. We'll see. If it's supposed to happen, it will happen. I'm trusting God with this one. And if it doesn't happen, I'll most likely try again next year, and if it still doesn't happen, then I'll just do something else. Cause I know that God will put me where He wants me, and, wherever that is, I'm going to have to be okay with that.
I'm working on becoming a better performer, too. I'm taking dance classes, and because I have to pay for those, I think I'm going to work a job over winter break. I wouldn't normally... last time I worked a job (like actual normal people job, not something related to film or theatre) was senior year when I worked retail for like a month to get enough money to buy a really good camera. But this time I will spend what I earn on dance classes, because it's worth investing in, really. It's going towards career (because you can't do musical theatre without being extremely proficient in all three areas of acting, singing, and dancing). Hopefully I'll get to take, like, three classes a week. Cause I need to get good next semester.
Also thinking about auditioning for a spot in the vocal coaching studios at my university. Apparently you can do that, you can take lessons, and it's included in the tuition cause it counts as a course, so that wouldn't cost extra, and I really need vocal coaching because I have no idea how to sing well. I will work hard to get trained, cause there's no other way to do this theatre thing.
I'm a college student now, I'm majoring in Advertising which is really cool! Advertising is really cool! And I like it! It's a good creative outlet and it's something I enjoy! But! If I could do anything and know I couldn't fail, I would head into a career of theatre performance.
Because theatre is my passion.
I had mentioned it used to be film, I used to be die-hard passionate for film, but once all the theatre stuff happened in my life, I just... I can't stop thinking about theatre. It's what I want to do. There's just something about being trusted with time and a story that's so appealing to me. It's an honor, really, to be a performer, because when people watch movies? They do it cause they're bored. And it costs, like, a few dollars. But for live theatre, they have to physically go to the theatre, buy a ticket that is usually about $50, and commit an entire two or three hours to watching what you're doing on stage. It's so much more of a commitment, but that's how you know they WANT to be there. They've made an effort and have come this far, so you can't give them less than everything you've got. Because you can inspire them, really. People come to the theatre to be inspired.
I can't not do this.
And I know I didn't even do theatre in high school, but, in a way, I feel like people who DID theatre in high school take it for granted. (And I should hold that thought because it's for another post.)
So, yeah, I'm majoring in Advertising, but I'm in the process of trying to get into the Theatre Department at my university so that I can double major with Advertising and Theatre. I did an audition and everything, and I think that went well, but there's a lot that will go into whether or not I get in. A lot of it depends on the incoming freshmen, cause the department has to accept students, the students have to choose whether or not they are actually going to come here, and then they have to choose what, like, "focus" they want to study (performance, directing, playwriting), and THEN the transfers and double majors like me get to see if there's still space for us. So there's a lot. And there's only so much I can do, but I'm gonna do it, because this is something I will actually work hard for. Cause I'm only in college once. And if I can get two degrees out of these four years, I'm going to do it. We'll see. If it's supposed to happen, it will happen. I'm trusting God with this one. And if it doesn't happen, I'll most likely try again next year, and if it still doesn't happen, then I'll just do something else. Cause I know that God will put me where He wants me, and, wherever that is, I'm going to have to be okay with that.
I'm working on becoming a better performer, too. I'm taking dance classes, and because I have to pay for those, I think I'm going to work a job over winter break. I wouldn't normally... last time I worked a job (like actual normal people job, not something related to film or theatre) was senior year when I worked retail for like a month to get enough money to buy a really good camera. But this time I will spend what I earn on dance classes, because it's worth investing in, really. It's going towards career (because you can't do musical theatre without being extremely proficient in all three areas of acting, singing, and dancing). Hopefully I'll get to take, like, three classes a week. Cause I need to get good next semester.
Also thinking about auditioning for a spot in the vocal coaching studios at my university. Apparently you can do that, you can take lessons, and it's included in the tuition cause it counts as a course, so that wouldn't cost extra, and I really need vocal coaching because I have no idea how to sing well. I will work hard to get trained, cause there's no other way to do this theatre thing.
Prequel: Me, 2015
All right, how do you run down an entire high school career and almost half a college semester in one blog post?
Y'all. This is either gonna be really short or really long. And, knowing me, it's probably gonna be real long, but I'll try to keep it short.
Let's see... I remember approximately .9482384% of freshman year in high school, and of that percentage, there's like uh 0% that I actually want to remember, so let's not talk about that. Sophomore year was pretty chill, I started getting into film, and I was like, "Yeah this film thing, I want to do this." Junior year was like, "Ayy I'm good at violin, I made All State Orchestra and I'm Secretary for our school orchestra, but this film thing is real cool, I'm good at it and I have resources cause my dad does lots of film for hobby, and this is what I want to do, because I can do it." I worked as a production assistant on my first film (it was a film made by university students, and I did that so that I would be ahead of everyone in my grade). I'm not entirely sure what I thought I wanted to major in junior year... I don't think I ever honestly wanted to be an RTF (Radio-Television-Film) MAJOR because I wanted to get a major in something that you actually need a degree for in order to get a career. So film career was what I wanted, but I knew I could get experience outside of schooling, so I didn't want to go to school for that. (This is gonna be long, I think. I thought I could keep it short. I'll try. I'll keep trying, hang in there.) Oh, also. Junior year I saw 'Newsies' on Broadway (on a trip with school orchestra to play at Carnegie Hall) and that changed my life. So hard. As soon as I got back, this is so crazy, and honestly I could talk to you TO ETERNITY AND BACK about this, and it's gonna come up a lot later, but ... as SOON as I got back from NYC, this audition call for 'The King and I' at the professional theatre in my city came out. REAL long story short, I auditioned, got in (still don't really understand how), did the show at the beginning of my senior year... which was crazy... because, you know, professional theatre, so we learned the show in two weeks, had a week of designer rehearsals, then tech week on the mainstage, then we had our performance run... seven shows a week for five weeks. It was the most brilliant, exhausting, inspiring period of my life, and, basically, now.... okay I'm gonna try to rescue any pride I have left at this point (because I thought I could keep this short and I'm gonna cheat a little and split this into two) I'm going to continue from present-day on the next post.
Y'all. This is either gonna be really short or really long. And, knowing me, it's probably gonna be real long, but I'll try to keep it short.
Let's see... I remember approximately .9482384% of freshman year in high school, and of that percentage, there's like uh 0% that I actually want to remember, so let's not talk about that. Sophomore year was pretty chill, I started getting into film, and I was like, "Yeah this film thing, I want to do this." Junior year was like, "Ayy I'm good at violin, I made All State Orchestra and I'm Secretary for our school orchestra, but this film thing is real cool, I'm good at it and I have resources cause my dad does lots of film for hobby, and this is what I want to do, because I can do it." I worked as a production assistant on my first film (it was a film made by university students, and I did that so that I would be ahead of everyone in my grade). I'm not entirely sure what I thought I wanted to major in junior year... I don't think I ever honestly wanted to be an RTF (Radio-Television-Film) MAJOR because I wanted to get a major in something that you actually need a degree for in order to get a career. So film career was what I wanted, but I knew I could get experience outside of schooling, so I didn't want to go to school for that. (This is gonna be long, I think. I thought I could keep it short. I'll try. I'll keep trying, hang in there.) Oh, also. Junior year I saw 'Newsies' on Broadway (on a trip with school orchestra to play at Carnegie Hall) and that changed my life. So hard. As soon as I got back, this is so crazy, and honestly I could talk to you TO ETERNITY AND BACK about this, and it's gonna come up a lot later, but ... as SOON as I got back from NYC, this audition call for 'The King and I' at the professional theatre in my city came out. REAL long story short, I auditioned, got in (still don't really understand how), did the show at the beginning of my senior year... which was crazy... because, you know, professional theatre, so we learned the show in two weeks, had a week of designer rehearsals, then tech week on the mainstage, then we had our performance run... seven shows a week for five weeks. It was the most brilliant, exhausting, inspiring period of my life, and, basically, now.... okay I'm gonna try to rescue any pride I have left at this point (because I thought I could keep this short and I'm gonna cheat a little and split this into two) I'm going to continue from present-day on the next post.
Let's Give This Thing Another Spin
All right, guys... I wasn't really going to do this, but I think I'm gonna make a return to this blog. I mean, probably no one reads it, and that's okay, but the thing is, a lot of times I have to just GET stuff out, ya know? I gotta say something. And a lot of times, when I need to do that, I text someone, but, you know, when you text someone, it's an actual real person, who responds, and then I respond, and then I lose like an entire hour of my day because I'm having a conversation that ends up kind of irrelevant.
So I think I'll just put as many as those spiels on here, just to try to lessen my time spent in conversation, cause that's the biggest source of my procrastination.
And I can't procrastinate. (I mean, I'm definitely capable of it. And I do it all the time. It's actually really bad, and that's the only reason why I'm pulling this middle school blog out of the ashes and giving it another spin.)
Honestly, I really should be studying, but I've got class in like an hour and then I've got the rest of the day (wait actually, I don't, because it's Monday and Mondays are very busy for me) but I feel like if I don't get this thing started right here right now, there's no way it's gonna end up picking back up for me. And I don't know if I'll continue to post, and if I don't, that's because I'm not getting a real-time response (which I'm not expecting) and that probably would discourage me? I like spreading ideas to an audience, and there's not an audience on here, while, when I text someone, there's an audience... of one, but it's still an audience.
Anyways, I'll probably spend the next couple of posts kind of talking about who I am now... because I was kind of all over the place back in middle school, when most of my blogging took place.
Let's see how this goes.
So I think I'll just put as many as those spiels on here, just to try to lessen my time spent in conversation, cause that's the biggest source of my procrastination.
And I can't procrastinate. (I mean, I'm definitely capable of it. And I do it all the time. It's actually really bad, and that's the only reason why I'm pulling this middle school blog out of the ashes and giving it another spin.)
Honestly, I really should be studying, but I've got class in like an hour and then I've got the rest of the day (wait actually, I don't, because it's Monday and Mondays are very busy for me) but I feel like if I don't get this thing started right here right now, there's no way it's gonna end up picking back up for me. And I don't know if I'll continue to post, and if I don't, that's because I'm not getting a real-time response (which I'm not expecting) and that probably would discourage me? I like spreading ideas to an audience, and there's not an audience on here, while, when I text someone, there's an audience... of one, but it's still an audience.
Anyways, I'll probably spend the next couple of posts kind of talking about who I am now... because I was kind of all over the place back in middle school, when most of my blogging took place.
Let's see how this goes.
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