It's not that I think that people won't miss me, it's just I'm kinda upset that no one really noticed me while I was there. When I say I'm going to leave everyone's all, "What?" and then starts treating me differently. (Not you guys.) But if they really wanted me to know "how great I am" then why didn't they just show it to me while I was still there? I kinda feel like they're all preassured to say how much I mean to Brentwood, but think about it-- all this time what have I been able to do? One of my best talents at the Woods of Brent is my flute.
And I think that Plard disrespects me, because what has he done for me? Let me play a duet with Polly. That's all. Nothing else. That's IT. My four years of flute, and that's all he does. He didn't teach me how to play, I went and got a private teacher. Oh, another thing he did for me-- brought me to all-region. But he brought all of us to all region, so that doesn't help all that much.
And no one's said anything about my writing except for Mrs. Nest, after she figured out that I was going to leave.
Mrs. Morin is actually probably the only one that's actually recognized my talent in the arts. Even so, last year she let Nikki go to competition in the 8th grade level, and I was stuck in the 7th. Okay, then, fine. I don't care. At least I got to go.
I'm not even a good student, my grades are pretty bad. I would say who always gets the same grades as me, but then that'd kinda ruin my reputation as "smart". But after the teachers finds out I'm leaving, they say, "Oh, but you were such a good student!"
Yeah, right.
If you want to prove something to me, you kinda have to do that BEFORE I go.
It feels like it's all kind of forced.
I was a nobody until the last two months in which everyone knew I was leaving. Don't say I wasn't, cause what was I chosen for? It was always the same people that the teachers like the most-- Mad, Hale, Nikki, Megs, TyTy. Right? Yeah. Don't deny it, I never was in that group. And I guess I don't even want to have, because they all turn out thinking they're better than everyone else.
So at Circle Stone High, I'll just be the same nobody, cause there'll be, oh, maybe just a few hundred other nobody kids to blend in with.
I'm not saying I am no one. I know the talents I have, I just don't want to flaunt them. I know what all I can do, I just don't show them off. That's not what's supposed to happen, you aren't supposed to show off.
So I won't.
I'll just sit back and wait for it to all be over.
