So I've been awaiting auditions for this one particular show. It's going to be going on in the summer, so I was anticipating that auditions would be held in May, or April, at the earliest. I've been checking audition notices on the theatre's website out of habit and curiosity, and today... the audition calls for that show are up.
Already.
It's December right now. The end of December.
And the auditions are in the middle of January.
Which is crazy for many reasons.
First of all, that's like TWO WEEKS OR SO before the auditions occur... and usually the calls come out with a bit more time to prepare. Also, these auditions are REAL EARLY.
There have sometimes been two rounds of local auditions (because they go to NYC to hold auditions there, too) so I wonder if that's the case for this as well... if there are, they'd probably be around March. I'm kind of wondering if I should find out if there'll be that second round... because I was SO banking on being able to have basically an entire semester to get trained in dance so I don't look dumb at the dance call, and, possibly, vocal performance, if I have time/money.
But two weeks. I can't - uh...
Well, we'll see. I'll just throw my best shot. I already sent in my submission anyways, so I'm more or less locked into this. I also reached out to a vocal professor and I'd like to take a couple of lessons in prep for this audition. I'm so sure he's gonna be like "girl wat u tryna do" but at least I'm doing SOMEthing.
Basically, I'm not expecting to get in. Mostly because this show has a lot of small parts that are meant for middle aged cast members, and because these roles are small, the actors playing them are definitely going to be ensemble members as well, and that kind of sounds like it would make sense for a large portion of the ensemble to be made up of middle aged actors. That doesn't leave much room for younger performers, and that means that - out of audition young adults - the ones that are real good at dancing are probably going to get offered placement in the cast.
But, honestly, I don't particularly like this musical... I could like it if I tried, and I definitely would if I was a part of it, but it's not like a show I would REALLY REALLY feel like I TOTALLY missed out on a chance to perform if I don't get it. And I know that I'm so at the beginning of this journey, I'm still basically just heading into a lot of rejection, so I'm expecting that, kind of.
It would be absolutely crazy if I got in. But you know what? I have an absolutely crazy God and He can make these things happen. He's already done it before...
I'm promising God that this is for Him. If I get this - if He gives this to me - it's all His. All the glory will be to Him and to nothing else, because, honestly, I myself don't have enough to get this. It would definitely be nothing but Him if I did get this.
So this is for Him, right? And if He doesn't want this, then that's okay. That's nothing taken away from me. And if He does want this, if He wants me to do this for His glory, then that's absolutely fantastic and I'll be entirely endlessly grateful and will try to give back (though I'll never be able to fully and actually do that completely).
So that's that. That's my mindset. This is for God, and He's got the power of giving it to me or not giving it to me. But it's actually not even mine. It'll be God's, once I have it - if I get it - it would be His.
