So here comes where I explain why I'm doing this. Or, I mean, now I'm able to give a more comprehensive explanation, because I've gone over a few things.
Next semester will be so busy. I'm taking, like, fifteen hours at school (only twelve right now) and one of them is REALLY crucial and I need a B in that class for it to count, and it kind of has to count, because it's a prerequisite for like everything and I'm taking my math class. It's Statistics, and I took AP Stat in high school, so I should be good? But still it'll require so much effort, and I need to be able to get myself to do that.
Again, I spend way too much time talking to people, and I actually do type this much when I'm talking to them, so I know I'm literally typing essays here, but honestly when I'm typing to someone, it's essays upon essays upon essays. Because there are responses. And I can't predict how long a conversation will go for. So I'm going to cut down on time with this.
And I need to get time cut down because I have to choose what I need to focus on. Of course, school has to be a first priority... I guess it is, in my mind, but in my heart, school is like "nope" and I just want to do all the arts instead. See, this semester, I've spent lots of time reading plays, working on writing plays, practicing dance in my dorm room... but I can't do all that random extra stuff. I mean I guess I'll probably continue practicing dance stuff and stretching in my dorm, but just less because I'll be taking lessons and ACTUALLY dancing.
So, of course, school. Gotta do that.
Then dance. Will have to do that.
And I think that's it, that's all I'll be able to get myself to do and do WELL.
I might even schedule, like, and hour by hour agenda for myself, and I might not follow it, but at least, if I don't follow it, I'll feel bad about not following it, which will hopefully guilt trip me INTO following it.
I'll give that a shot. But I'm not going to have time for social (I should probably do another post about that) but that's not a problem and it's not really a priority. I'll probably drop out of a couple of organizations I'm in, just for next semester, at least. Which reminds me... that if I do dance classes, I won't be able to do any student plays... which I might get to later in another post... but... oh. That's okay, cause win LOTS, lose some, hopefully. There's one organization I was totally planning on going to, but I've only been to one meeting, so, oops. Then there's one that I've been going to, but it hasn't been helpful, and I have a class next semester that starts right when this organization ends. One of the only reasons why I'm in this org is because it increases my chances of getting a job at the company it's linked with (not like big job, just little stuff but it's still something I'd like to do).
So I'll just not do those organizations... I'll do school and dance and mannn I gotta figure out when I'm going to go to Bible studies and stuff... cause I need a Christian community, just... I have a class during the time they meet as a college group. But there's a Bible study on Sunday evenings with the college girls, and I guess I'll go to that. And church in the morning, of course. I need to be able to figure this out. Cause this should be the number one priority, but it just.. isn't, really, ya know? And it needs to be.
Anyways. Yeah, I think that's it. Basically, I just gotta cut down on the things that aren't my top three. And I'm making lifestyle adaptations accordingly (like this). So let's see how this goes.
